I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
It's been a stormy day in north Alabama. Scott and I loaded up important things like wedding pictures, Junior, frozen meat, etc. and headed to Locust Fork. Scott's parents have a basement, and we decided that would be the safest place to ride out the storms. After an early morning trip to the bath tub, we weren't about to take any chances. The pictures above are of us playing Boggle in the basement and Scott and Mr. P keeping us updated on the weather by looking at the radar on Scott's blackberry.
Unfortunately, another storm has been happening all week. Monday was a state holiday (Confederate Memorial Day) and since I was off, I scheduled my 9 month oncologist appointment at UAB. I have to go every three months and this was my third trip. The past two trips have been very routine, and I wasn't even that nervous Monday. After several test and waiting to see my oncologist, his assistant came in and asked me normal questions about pain, fatigue, etc. He was impressed with my knee flexibility and left to go review my scans/test. Dr. Siegel came in. I'm well aware of body language and know when it's about to be bad. The doctor sitting down next to you is NEVER a good sign. He explained that they found a "lesion" on my liver. He didn't seem too concerned and sent me home to fast and be back at the hospital by 8:00 am on Tuesday morning for more test. Scott and I got up super early and headed back to B'ham. After a minor panic attack during the CT scans, we were back on our way home around lunch time. I decided to stay home from work and wait for the doctor to call. He called. The lesion became a tumor yesterday afternoon. Ugh. I'm about to vomit typing this. My oncologist is an orthopaedic oncologist, so I was told yesterday that he wanted to discuss my test with a general surgeon to decide a plan of care. My oncologist thought they would probably order even more test this week, but I got a call today during the storms that I need a biopsy immediately. I go Friday. I plan to go to work tomorrow to keep my mind from going crazy. The doctors said that I will probably know Friday if it is malignant or benign. If it is malignant, the doctors will give me my options and we will go from there. Pray. Please. Pray. What else is there to do?? Pray specifically that I have peace and comfort. I am on day 3 of terrible migraines and vomiting due to stress. Pray for all my family but especially mom and Scott. Pray for my job security. Scott made me promise to stop worrying about my job, but the state is threatening layoffs daily and my health insurance is more important now then ever. Pray for the tumor to be gone. Not just benign. Gone!!
